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Don’t understand why it’s hard for people to ask questions instead of assuming things. I guess I ask too many questions though- tends to annoy some people. Lol…when it comes to abstinence- it’s not being a tease. I choose to remain chaste while not married. It’s my choice and no one elses. Not my mom, my family, but mine. Yes, I was young, 14,when I became one of Jehovah’s Witnesses. I still made that choice on my own when I was ready to. I never regret that choice neither. In fact, I was actally raised a Baptist when younger and actally celebrated the holidays. So, yes, I do know what it was like. Yes, I’m raising my son to get to know Jehovah, but ultimately when he is old enough to decide, that choice will be his. It’s what we all do in raising our children. They get some form of teaching from us as parents. But one thing, my son is never deprived of fun and gifts. It doesn’t have to be on those certain days. I love Jehovah and I feel I owe Him my life. So I try my best to live according to His will. We all as individuals make our choices, so we all as individuals will be judged by God, Himself. Therefore, I try not to judge anyone. It’s not my place to. To each his own. I try not to assume anything anymore. That’s why I ask questions. And expect honesty in return, because I will believe. I have faith in people. I value friendship, and respect other’s opinions as long as they respect mine…..

Does not understand why people play with others emotions. :-/…Would rather be left alone. No one deserves silence of any kind. Some sort of explanation should be given. And simply, with no hidden codes or through other people. Either you’re in or you’re not. My heart can absolutely not take games. People know exactly where I stand. It’s not fair to have my life “examined” and not even know for sure who’s doing the examination. It feels like I’m imprisoned in my own life. No one deserves to be treated that way. It’s not being ungrateful. I def appreciate everything given or suggested to me. I simply can not and will not love blindly. I’m trying but it hurts too much. :{ I feel like people are trying to break me in like a wild horse- according to their standards. I plan to never disrespect my Heavenly Father Jehovah or myself. I will not change in that aspect regarding my faith and morals. If someone- and not just anyone- cannot love me for who I am and what I stand for, I am moving forward.

I don’t understand the concept of love and war. Why so much hate exists for someone that equals to passion for them? Is it because of past relationships? How much of our past do we really bring into a new relationship? Is it like a lover’s revenge? Maybe that’s why there’s a constant cycle of “starting overs”. Nothing really gets solved that way. That’s really and truly the “easy” way out. To be able to forgive truly the past is moving forward. I’m learning this. We cannot bring past into a new relationship and expect it to work. No two relationships are the same. There is a constant evaluation of ourselves. Knowing ourselves first constitutes maturity. Then and only then can we bring something of real value to a relationship that will last and recognizing there is no perfect relationship. But, that does not mean that a relationship can not last. I totally believe in constancy. It may be hard to stick with a relationship that may turn into no longer being a bed of roses, but once those obstacles are tackled, it makes the relationship that much stronger and you get the sense of being able to tackle anything. That creates happiness and a sense of security. But there absolutely can not be a constant putting down and then builing up. That can be so emotionally draining- just like war. Because there can be so much adrenaline one minute and then a feeling of solitude the next. Partners should be able to lift each other up subsequently when needed. At any given time there will be a stronger one. It takes a mature man and woman to recognize and act upon that. Knowing when to be silent and when to speak. I’m learning. We hate to see our loved ones in pain. So naturally want to try to help. But sometimes we can hurt more than help. So we should give them what they ask for, within reason. Love is a two-way street- give and take.

The pain that I feel seeing him with another woman is not because of wishing it was still me, but rather a feeling of failure of no longer being the one that was able to make him happy. I’m embarassed to face our mutual friends. What can I tell them? Most of them didn’t even know of separation let alone the divorce. I kept that pain from my own momma for a while— all rolled up inside of me like a subconscious thought instead of a reality. That’s how I coped or should I say didn’t cope. Basically prolonging the pain instead of tackling it and letting it go. Now everything I do is critisized by him. That’s why I try to avoid him as much as possible. It makes me feel unworthy as a woman and worse yet as a mother. I know that we can’t control the other person’s actions, but still….that pain lingers each time I see him and it hurts like h***.

I think I understand now…………………………………………………………still don’t like it though.

Does not understand why people put pressure on others to get them to do what they want…then what? What happens afterwards? Once people have had their way, you usually become trash to them. So you get thrown away. But there are some who go digging in the trash. To them you may become treasure, but for how long? Even though some things are made to last forever, they may not stay in the same hands forever. I don’t get that. Being recycled through different hands. It’s not fun. It’s very hurtful and can make someone feel very useless and invaluable.